I like folk on generalities. Firsthand, that’s all you’ve got to go on before that first conversation gives you enough information as to whether you might wanna have a second encounter or you want them to stay the hell away from you. I truly believe in loving mankind and all that good-sounding stuff but you and me both know there are some folk we have to love from a distance. Straight up. At this very moment, I’m on a serious fast with a couple, no, three folk. ‘Cause I’m telling you, Totsy’s got herself a real low tolerance for bullshit, especially that repetitive kind. You know that brand where folk keep taking you on their screw-up rides and it feels like deja damn vu. Life is short, folks. So in turn, you want it to be sweet and damn near delicious, if you can help it. And who the hell don’t like delicious?
I’ve been thinking on this here person who I’ve been fasting from, who lives a good hop, skip and back-flip away from me. We made a fast and steady little friendship. She’s a woman. I’m a woman. She likes to laugh. I like to tell jokes. So on and so damn forth. I went to her little birthday party awhile back and y’all know, this is when you get familiar with shit you weren’t banking on. Same kinda shit akin to what you discover and can’t stand about that man or woman you were sleeping with after you fell on the deep side of love and it’s too late to turn back ’cause you too old to be starting over or you’ve put on weight you didn’t have before you met his ass or ole girl knows how to work that new pole you’ve put in the bedroom but she can’t cook or keep a nickel in her pocket worth a damn and, like I said before, so on and so damn forth.
Well, Totsy gets herself on to the party and I tell you no lie, I couldn’t hear myself thinking, those folk were talking so loud. Wasn’t no music at this here party for them to be talking over either, mind you. One thought that came to me was that this new friend and I could never go out in public together ’cause she’s got too much volume. Anyhow, me and my little one go in the bathroom to wash up so we can get down with the little spread they got going on and I stop short of asking her ‘Why the hell are they talking so loud?’ Now, when I say it was a party, it was a little somethin’ somethin’ thrown together and I’ll be damned if the food wasn’t ready ’til 9 damn thirty or so and my ass all promptly over there at 6. I went over there on empty and got Little Totsy sitting over there hungry as hell too. So, ole Totsy wasn’t shy about saying she was ready to damn eat. Where’s the shit at? And I’ll be damn if I didn’t fill my plate up and the shit wasn’t good. You talking about one disappointed and dissatisfied bitch, I was. It’s some unfortunate shit for you and the cook when you put some food in your mouth you don’t want to chew up and swallow. I had to swing me and Little Totsy by a fast food joint after we left there.
Now, back to the fasting thing (see what happens when you get all wound up?) This same woman whose party I went to took a verbal knife to Totsy’s back some time after the party. Yes, she did, folks. See, I confided some stuff, nothing real personal but stuff all the same, you know, and she slaps that shit back at me like a rattle snake licking my face. I mean, I saw little shit here and there on this road we’re on together but Totsy ain’t paying none of that no nevermind ’cause we girls and all but you’ve gotta recognize when little shit ain’t really little at all. Matter of fact, it’s big as hell but you’re having too good of a time to notice, ’til that little prick you felt starts feeling like somebody shot you in the ass. I have to tell you, I’ve been deliberating on this here person and while I miss high fiving and hell yeahing with her and all that other good stuff, I’ve got myself an issue with moonwalking back to where something ain’t fittin’ right. And I’ll be the first to say I should’ve kept my damn mouth closed up, so that little heifer on the inside of me wouldn’t have been berating me with shit like, “I told yo’ ass.’ You know how it is and I don’t care what anybody says, hindsight ain’t nothing but a big ole bitch. It can be a complicated thing when you get to liking folk and they change your mind, ain’t it?
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You are so right. Making a new friend is a great joy, but if you find our you can’t trust her, it’s best just to walk away. Or keep your mouth closed at the very least. So hard to do.
Yes, it is a hard thing to do when you think the person is think the person is trustworthy. I hate to be so guarded but I have to keep in mind that friendship is gradual.
We learn from every experience in our life, so just look at it as another experience and stay the heck away from her.
Yep, another learning experience it was and I’ll keep loving from a distance.
Great! You paint a wonderful picture of that party with all those loud-ass people and lousy food. Keep giving that fasting friend love from afar! You completely crack me up.
Thanks, Annie. I’ll keep that hop, skip and backflip distance. And I’m glad I was able to put you in the room with my descriptive. It’s still so vivid and loud when I think back on it
Glad I can make you laugh 
oool…I like a lil variety… like your writing style… especially since a really high % of time I stay home with the TV off and zero noise. After a while I get like… where’s the party at!?! Next thing I know… and especially if I start drinking, somebodies talking about me! LoLLLL
Thank you. Now, what kinda variety are we talking here? Just kidding…Well, it’s been a quiet and restful Sunday. No party here today. Totsy’s been chillin’ real hard
I hate when people do stuff like that. It’s so childish.
Yes, give them a walk.
Marcia
Yep, seems to be the consensus. While acknowledging my own slip-up by saying too much too soon, it’s still not a cool thing to do because you have to wonder what else lurks around the corner.
So true.
I usually am very trusting of people but I guard my privacy. What I want you to know is what I’ll tell the world.
I find it difficult to bounce back from betrayals — there’s usually no friendship left after that.
I tend to say good-bye more than hello. I’ve very few rules, but it goes like this, no liars, cheats, or thieves, making it more complicated, I am a straight shooter- I say what I think or I don’t talk. That combo makes me less attractive to some, thus goodbye more than hello. I am mostly fearless at first encounters and I will step outside if my comfort zone if there is a chance of a kindred spirit connection, but if there isn’t the same coming back in my direction I close up shop and move along. The betrayal thing kills me every time even though I’ve been around long enough to understand that a person’s insecurity is almost always at the root, still.. Life is too darn short to invest your time in someone like you described. That’s the Latin fire me sparking ..
That’s the thing about it, Brenda. I don’t like good-byes, especially what I see as permanent. I’ve gotten to a place where I can deal with sections of people because I know they won’t like every part of me either. Now, this particular issue felt wrong on so many levels and naturally, I was less trusting. I just figured what I knew about this person was all I wanted to know, so no more investment there.